~g i l l i a n~

im over this journal.

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 01:52:23 GMT

so i gotta new one. poisonnparadise.

resist!!!!

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 00:08:31 GMT

-rite now...im bored.....and listening to a song.

-it has tooo many memories. ill turn it off now........................

-i went to church this morning. i feel like such a good kid.

-i also went out to lunch. and met jeremy.

-my last nite=non-existant. no comments.

-so for now im going to keep myself busy. i hate being alone!!

-good.bye.

oohh let me just tell you...im a tired girl.

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 01:22:21 GMT

linzi krista and i went to a party off pederson and met kevin spence matt and so and so. we separated ourselves from spencer. cause he was humping some nasty chick. lol um ya we didnt know many people cause it was a typical 't.o. party' but i met a few hot boys. just a few. lol. i hate when people decide to smoke and follow me around...cough cough. dudei hate that so much. haha but i couldnt help but stare at this really hott guy with a hood on. oh man!! oh and ashlie and her friend were there too. she likes to litter on the carpet of other peoples houses. lol. then some long-haired freak tried hitting on her. ya he was really gross so i saved her from that sit. lol. then me and lindz kept walking from the party, to matts house, party, to matts, and so on cause i had to pee and i thought they didnt have bathrooms. lol. hung out some more. soon we left that scene and headed to matts again. drove 2 kristas. hung out with kevin and so and so. haha. i got into a really ...wierd... situation which i got myself out of real fast. and the music only added to it. haha im such a baby huh... well that was my nite. we ended up sleeping there. and i had no where to sleep:( so i slept on top of linzi. HAHAHA. sorry bout that!!

I LOVEEE YOUUUU!!

go on brush ur shoulders off!!!

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 20:55:19 GMT

we lost our game last nite. against simi. they are good and big girls. lol then we went to outback for dinner.
On sunday my dad took me to a bunch of dearships and we went to looked at some cars. and they let me test drive this mustang. its white with tan leather rims a system and really fast. im surpprised they let me drive it. last nite we stopped by there to see it. then i went home and fell asleep early. i had a dream.... some gave me a bunch of cute fishes. and i put them all in their own tanks. and krista came over put her foot in a tank and stepped on my favorite one! :( so i started yelling at her over a fish? hehe. -*-*- today im going to my dads house cause he got a new puppy!! tomorrow i take my driving test=/ wish me luck. <3imout.xoxo.

ps. lets find me a NICE guy...k.....

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 05:42:05 GMT

i want something

~wierd~

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 08:38:58 GMT

i just got home from a softball tournment down by magic mountain.
we lost both games. we arent so good. it was annoying n dramatic cause we played really bad and kelman got pissed. then at the end he pointed out a mistake i made when the rest of the team made 10 zillion other erros and i got sad and started being 'disrespectful' to him. blahblah blah whatever. im so tired im not makign sense proly. im glad im home though so i can sleep!
this morning i got acrylics filled and then went tanning and saw heather there since she goes every fricken day!! i just realized when i tryed sleeping on the car ride home that i am REALLY sunburned. and it hurts:(

we got dropped at school tonite after.
then i went out to dinner wth the girls. it was nuts we were all in one of those wierd random moods. like 10 teachers from westlake were in the bar getting drunk ~*~ mr maki ~*~ HAHAHAH he was waisted. AND HIS HAT WAS BACKWARDS!!! wow shayna that doesnt mean SHIT!
oh ya heather got us all sick. heather has monno. shayna drank heathers coke. katie drank heathers drink. heather drank my shake. i drank jessys shake. jessy drank summmers.Hahahahhaha...u get it?
i hope so cause im super tired.
i would rather sleep than go out rite now.
goodnite

hola chika ou le garcon de la la oh la

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 01:49:08 GMT

i got kidnapped this morning at f'ing 5:35 AM by a bunch of fools. my softball team. they suck. i woke up to katie shayna and summer laughing at me. i knew right away what was up. they threw me in the car. all i could bring was a toothbrush and my skool shit. blazed ninty down the 23. katies a pshyco driver. drove around sooo long to find leahs house and then heathers. lol i dont think ive driven so much in one morning. we made it: ^ hetther was crying & was saying dont let me kiss mike!! in her sleep....went to chelsies. it was a bad time:( i almost started cryin cause nazi chelsie went pshyco with the makup!!! i took most of it off right away cuz i refused to go out like that.... they made us wear these ugly as clothes with fagg hair. all sticken up and the clothes. u should have seen them. i got off easy but the others girls looked soooo bad. at skool every1 was looken n askin wat happen. ya but i got over it and ya i looked really dumb if u saw :P
went to lunch. sharkeys. katie drove by randomly and saw us parked on to blvd. we had practice. dont usually sit on to blvd. lol she stopped by. & she was nice enough to take me home cause i didnt wanna go to softball. went home cuz my sister was locked out of the house. got ice cream. until someone came home. nobody ended up coming home so i climbed thru the window. why didnt i think of that before? i do not know. i watched blue crush while it took like a hour to get that shit out of my hair! please dont let that happen to me again. now im out to a lovely fantabulous fun frickin love nite. wow im pshyco. bye<3

forgive and forget ?

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 05:57:52 GMT

i slept in today and missed skool cause i thought it would be pointless. then went at two pm for practice cause we have a game tomorrow. we got out around four. went tanning. mall. got the cutest bra at victoria secerts:) i want to go back and get a swimsuit with paul frank monkies on it!!! haha! next i went to dinner at jacks. and there were hot guys at the table next to us. i wanted to be in there family cuz my family is dumb. ooo i saw linzi and amanda on the tread mill at total women. hahhahha. i banged on the window but they didnt see me:( so wenthome did laudry. i have to wear my uniform to skool tomorrow. yucky. ahh im really tired and pissed off cuz my parents are giving me a hard time about how i want a truck. cause gas and shit. ahhh fuck it. whats the big deal? im tired and i seriously dont care anymore. but im getting a doggy:)
goodnite <3

happy saint patrick day!

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 19:48:37 GMT

your shit.

What swear word are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

>-.-< its an asian bunny!!!

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 04:31:40 GMT

wat up!
i have to write an essay tonite and im dreading it:(
school was confusing due to the sophomores messing shit up cause they had to take tests.. i passed it last year yay.
it was a cool change. i hate how everyday at school is exactly the same. i can predict each day as it comes. and its not fun at all.whatev.
lunch me danielle linzi and kik tried to go to cpk. stupid man caught us. then we was guarding the exit zones cause he knew what we were up to:)
~*~*~
softball was hell. it was hotter than ever. and i didnt listen or pay attention. cause i cant when its hot. lol. me and heather went to kelmans office and stole mountain dews from his fridge:) and we got some yummy altoids. they were sour apple! jon gave us a ride back down there and we had a water fight. i was really wet n shit and had to go to bjs. so i got dressed in the dugout and went.

i didnt go to the gym tonite:( im sorry linzi poo!! i have hw.
but me and linzi. beach everyday. in nine days. hur-fucking-ray.

here ya go

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 03:51:11 GMT

friday i was grounded. so i went out to dinner. and dyed my hair. sat i went shoppin at the topanga & sherman oaks mall and out to lunch at louises. saturday nite didnt turn out how i expected. but i still had a goodtime. u can always have fun if u make it fun. :). after that me and amy watched a movie. beaches at 1 am. i wanted to see the end cuz its really sad. but i fell asleep. sunday i hung out with amy for a bit and then went out with lindz cuz she broke up with her bf and she was sad. then hw came. i guess thats my weekend in a shell. pretty shitty. but i dont care. ha. imout<3
ooo guess wat i heard!!!
brandon is metrosexual.

i get my lisense in ten days
i cant even tell you how happy i am:)
my life will be complete.

happy birthday heath!

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 01:27:53 GMT

hi lo...nothin new. i am feelin not much better than yesterday. i almost stayed home today cause i felt awful this morning but i went 2 school and im glad i did cuz its heathers birthday! yay!! i woke up early to get her balloons and stuff. at lunch me n heath were puttin her balloons in her car and they went pop pop pop! ha! and stupid century kids were trying to light them on fire with matches! haha wat dumbasses! we went to western bagel with caitlyn chris & alisha.... after that i went home at lunch and slept cause i didnt feel good. watchin trl. im out. <3

wat up

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 03:13:02 GMT

havent updated this thing in a while. thats k tho. my weekend was good. relaxin and shityaaa. sounds good. cant remember the earlier part of my weekend it was a long time ago you know? cuz its monday dammit, i hate mondays! but saturday nite was kinda f'ed up? amy.... whatever. i got to drove around sunday and did arons and shiot it was fun:) well i started gettin sick sunday and now i feel awful!! i cant breathe! colds suck dick! like for real. today i came home from school early and slept for a couple and katie woke me up....nice! my day was boring! but it was so pretty outside:)

EVERYBODY IN THE CLUBS GETTIN TIPSY~ YAHH

PS! FLEETWOOD IS HOME....THAT MAKES ME HAPPY:)

WATS UP....

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 03:37:38 GMT

its friday!!!!
just wanted to say hello:)
EVERYONE HAVE A FABULOUS NITE!!!!!!
ill see y'all tomorroW!!!!!!

ps. i had a really shitty f'en softball practice!!!! softball can suck 10 dicks at once!!!!! ya......thats what i said when i went home.

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 05:01:26 GMT

i was sick today.
i watched romy and michelles high school reunion and full house all day.
i downloaded a bunch of ringtones on my new fone:)
i will evenually get yelled at cuz they cost $
listened to something corporate.
i have this song stuck in my head. its sad.
ha but i like it.
it reminds me of my old friend.
he was the best.
not.

ps. i cant sleep:(

~something to think about~

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 04:28:23 GMT

How do i love you?
Let me count the ways.....

Someday, Somehow, I'm gonna make it alright... but not right now.

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 04:47:27 GMT

I GOT MY PERMIT YESTERDAY!

(and i only have to have it for a month)

i hope it thunders 4 me.

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 01:44:59 GMT

:::hello hello hello:::
i am excited to get my lisease in a month...ha....yayness

at lunch me heather and dena went to jamba!! i used heathers id since im "illegible"...so dumb!! it was so funny the guy was like 'that picture dont look like u'...i was like 'uh this is meee!!!' hahha nice nice man!

anyways we got two dozen roses in the mail cuz the ones that came on valentines day died like the next day!!! funny shit! oh by the way its raining really hard outside my window and i love it.

well i need to go do my hw. im not too impressed with my grades!! um k talk to y'all later!

ps. i want my lexus is300~*~

~haha~

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 05:20:21 GMT

i hate her!! shes so gross!! stupid plain girl!!

caitlin i adore u!
"i had a gerbil and i forgot to feed it, so it ate its leg, and now its with jesus."

mammoth in 2 days!!! wooo!!
~im still young~
SEX IN THE CITY!!!!

*live each day as your last because yesterday is over and tomorrow may never exist!

ps. im so so sore!!

"my names sopha you can sit on me"

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 05:58:52 GMT

lol today i woke up to someone calling me 10000000 times. thats my like biggest like.. pet peeve? ya i would say!! people who wake up early need to not wake others up!! thanks.

then i woke krista up by stealing her comforter and running with it. hahahahh then she complained for about 20 minutes and i finally dragged her out of her room to clean up the mess everyone made last night.. what fat people!!!

then i went to lunch with my daddy today! i missed him cuz i havent seen him cuz he was working on a movie far far away. it was nice. then i had softball practice at 1 until five. it was long. but this year is gun' be so much fun with all the girls. i hope they dont kidnapp us=/ thats awfully funny but NOT!

after that i came home and did my homework thanks to ricks lecture about everyones grades sucking last year....it motivated me to stop being such a slacker!!!!

~its always you in my big dreams~

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 08:44:08 GMT

TONITE~ me kevin spencer matt krista crystal joe and some others had a bon fire. amys here now and we are talking. she says hi! kristas bro brought over like 8 of his friends and they were all soo stoned. what is this world coming to. so dirty man drove them all home but one. hes passed out on the couch. lol. well i think were gonna go out if not watch movies:) talk to ya late!

HOLLA BACK YOUNGIN WOO! WOO!

~happy valentines day~

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 04:09:28 GMT

this is how my day went up to now!! sittin home waiting!! thought i'd update this since my life is soooo exciting!! lol!!

first woke up at 8:00!! (thats sooo early) to go last minute shopping, got a hot mocha from starbucks, got reeeeally pretty roses, shopped at build-a-bear, nail appointment, went to lunch at this reeeeally good salad place, went back to the mall to exchange a shirt ~I SAW BEN OMG I LOVE BEN!~ went to the valley, i had to get some snowboard pants....they are white roxy ones. way cute! a jacket...its cute also! its red and has black fur inside! some roxy goggles and warm shirts for mammoth this weekend...im so soo excited! HOTT snowboarder guys!! we are gonna snowboard until we cant stand any longer!! hopefully i wont break anything!!! lol!!! wish me luck and i hope we get snowed in cuz we sure as hell dont wanna come home!!! krista amalyn wooooo wooooo!!

on a worser note, i think this is kinda shitty....listen.... ok niamh and aoife, friends from ireland, came out yesterday and sorta ditched caitlin to stay at bari's house. they didnt even call her when their plane landed until 5 hours later. then. today, caitlin was tellin me how the twins were gonna meet her at the mall and when she called them to meet up at abercrombie. they were so rude and practically hung up on her. then, she meets then at this other store in the mall and they ignore her, demand her to exchange something for their friend, and act like they just hung out two weeks ago. when caitlin hasnt seen them in like 7 months. thats rude. i guess that shows how immature they are....I TOLD U!

for Valentines Day i got a HOT PINK COACH PURSE!!!!! omg its so damn cute!!! some white and pink roses!!! and soft heart candies in my clear heart bowl!!!
ps. somebody ate them all:(

~the days bleed into the nights~

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 05:36:38 GMT

ok why do i update this thing so many times? dont ask.

well Niamh and Aoife are in town and they went to this girls house which is fine but we planned to hang out. i should not be talking cuz im grounded anyway and im too tired to be fun so i guess its a good thing!

right now i should be sleeping since i slept awful last night but due to my sleeping disorder that happened a few nights back i cant sleep. maybe i slept too much the past year? whatever it is...it pisses me off cuz im soo sleepy!

Im wearing a trucker hat that says "Jesus is my homeboy" lol its pretty cute actually!! when they first started making these i remember making fun of them. i borrowed it tho.

i hate how songs and places remind you of certain people. actually its good sometimes but its also very upsetting. i think amy and krista can understand my problem!

i keep thinking about last night. its kinda regretful.

~anguish~

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 02:55:22 GMT

oh my god. i just realized i am the stupidest person imaginable! i got grounded last night for doing something totally not bad. my parents need to get a fucking life and stop looking for a way to get gillian in a bunch of shit. the twins came out today! i better be able to see them or id die:(

~its a sign of my obsession~

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 02:39:03 GMT

Blink 182
I Miss You

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)